sometimes you need to Pause.....

Well Hello Everyone,

Since my last blog back in November 2025 I've been quiet to say the least.

Life went into a tail spin with a death in the family and all that that entails, hence the quietness and a gentle pulling away from healings and readings as I navigated my feelings and supporting those closest to me through our loss.

I have come to learn and re-experience what grief and grieving is like and it's fickle.

It's hard to explain how I felt with all that I intuitively received over the last few months from the diagnoses through to their passing. And I can only express these thoughts and feelings from my own perspective.

My Guides let me know a time frame and that there would be no recovering for our Loved One, they were to far gone in their diagnoses and we had to do all things you do when panic comes to play. Rush around to make sure they are supported, ask the hard questions as to whether they have a Will, Power of Ettorny etc and when they say no, then you make sure they have. I have learnt that Will Kits aren't a favourite of the Supreme Court and that a Blue Pen is to be used - huh, who knew! - (we used a black pen) but we did our best and were told by a Solicitor it all looked good, as I held my breath hoping that we'd done it all correctly.

I think deep down our Loved One knew the truth of the situation but kept fighting and believing they would be okay. I remember going to visit and having to quickly school my face when I saw them and how much they had changed over a couple months, to see their pain and their courage to keep moving forward for the sake of those they loved was hard. To offer energy healing to support them and to feel their energy slowly fading, to feel the tears running down my face as I held them was an experience. Each time we visitied we could see the changes, the fading of a person we knew. To observe how they were coping with the sickness, fatigue, anger and all the other feelings. To not be able to answer their deepest question honestly was my undoing, to not be able to tell them their truth.....

To hold space for the dying is both energetically depleting and uplifting to know they are not alone, to sit in the energy of unconditional love, gratitude and to feel Spirit gather close to support/help the one dying. For me in those last few hours, it was overhelming as I was respecting others in the space as well as our Loved One. To feel Spirit enter the room and know that the end was so near made it bitter sweet. I remember feeling Spirit place a hand on my should to tell me it was okay to stop now - to stop supporting the energy and within 10minutes they passed away and 15minutes later, as I sat quiety with them, I heard their voice say "I'm okay now Meg" and then my tears of relief.

Numbness comes after the adrenaline stops.

What happens next? Well for me, I go into what I call business mode where I just start getting the job done, which was a little harder for me this time round as I could only advise others as best as I could. How do I truly deal with that, I ask myself, not having control of the situation was a BIG learning curve and hense more tears and more lessons to be learned, healed and let go.

On a spiritual level this situation knocked me around to the point of not wanting to do this work anymore, to not be the messenger for those who come to receive healing and guidance. I didn't want to be the messenger of Spirit to tell people to spend quality time with their loved ones who are sick or aging, I didn't want to be the messenger of Spirit, who was to pass on loving messages to loved ones who missed their special person, I didn't want to sit in that energy of loss. But I have found the courage to return to this work with gentle guidance and compassion and a inner knowing that I have a job to do and I will do it with love.

Since the passing of our Loved One I've had some amazing people come for healings and readings who are grieving in their own way which I could relate to and bring loving supportive messages from Spirit.

Our lives truly ebb and flow in many directions and situations but it is my hope that we all find a simple happiness and joy in our lives even in the darkest moments, to know that we are not alone but fully supported is a relief.

I have rambled through this blog and I hope you can understand its flow as grieving is fickle as I wipe a few tears away.

Breathe Meg, breathe - are the words I hear from above, a place of love to heal and be healed.

with love, Meg